Crime

If a crime was to happen i would honestly do nothing. As a human being, i feel like people expect you to always do the right thing. but what if doing the right thing means putting yourself in danger? i would not risk my life just to please society. If a crime was to happen i would honestly just call the police and let them handle their job. i would not get my hands dirty for a job that someone else has. Most people would call that selfish or rude, i call it reality. Crimes happen every day all over the world, and their is no one to stop it. No one stopped one guy from killing 19 kids in the Sandy hook shooting. It was just simply on the news and people who saw it repeatedly said "if i was there it would have been different" no if you were there you would not have done nothing. i applaud the people who actually stop crimes not to look good for society or the media but because that's something they choose to do from their own heart. the world is so messed up now a days we don't have that anymore. everyone is just for themselves and if they seen a crime happening they would turn their head and act like nothing happened.
Sometimes, the victims, aren't really the victims. People would do anything to make them look innocent. since not being a perfect human being is looked down at so much, we are forced to lie and seem like we are all victims.its not about being cruel or selfish, its about being realistic. half of the people who say they would stop it, probably wont if it was a real life scenario.
I'm nothing close to selfish, but if a crime was to happen i would do nothing about it.

Dear 30 year old self,

In the future i hope that you are successful. i hope that becoming a cardiologist is something you took in consideration and went forward with it. I hope that you did not lose touch with your family and some of your friends. Do not make bad decisions like some of the people in your family did. I hope you do not gain weight, your hair does not fall off or you do not lose your beautiful curly hair. I hope that you mature more through out time and do not get wrinkles or too much gray hair from stress. I hope you married a tall, successful beautiful light skin man that looks like Trey Songz with the mentality of Jay-z and the swag of Robin Thicke & John Legend. Love you xoxo.

The Real Me

The first impression that everyone gets when looking at me is that i am a very loud outgoing person. I am usually the loudest in the room and definitly the most talkative. But, the first impression can also be the wrong impression. As a child i was not the most loudest. i played by myself and did not really want to be carried or even played with. As i got older the quietness turned into shyness. i would not be able to talk to anyone without my heart beating fast and my palms getting sweaty. it takes me awhile to get comfortable enough around someone to talk around them. Although i am very shy and  friendly most people get the impression that i am very stuck up and self centered. it is true, i love to be alone and sometimes i do not want to be bothered, but i am a very welcoming person who is fulled with good spirit. i have been told to be "too much" of a nice person at times. i can not and will not hold a grudge to anyone and i will never reject a friend. i am a guilt person and my coinscience seems to also catch up to me.

i dont like opening up to people because i believe that once people get the ability to see your weak spot you become a victim to their bad treatment and critism. keeping your feelings bottled up is more better and safer then telling someone who can potentially hold it against you and talk about it to people who should not know your business. i rather be bottled up with my emotions then out there and be judge.people see me as a very honest person and yes this is true, but i dont always speak my mind the way i should. i hold my breathe at times and just suck up whatever is bothering me.this is one of my biggest problems, but this is also something that i am use to doing so when the time comes that i have to stay shut, i will do it with no problems.